Wednesday, October 8, 2008

When Seasons Change

The leaves are turning here Brinley, our first Fall without you. We are taking family pictures next week in these lovely colors and you will not be in them. I feel like God just spoke to me in this moment that the colors will be lovely in the pictures and they will serve as a reminder for us of you. I have been hoping that the trees will be beautiful. Now I have my confirmation. Looking back I can see how God has been faithful in those confirmations to me. Nathaniel was a boy just like he told me. The Spring was beautiful to remind me of the beauty in your life and that I would have beauty in my life even after your death too. And now I feel like I have been promised beautiful Autumn colors to grace our family pictures to remember that your life goes on Brinley. I miss you girl. I love you and as much as I wish you were here I know that God is using this to prepare our family for eternity just like He promised me shortly after your death.
On a different note God has been revealing to me lately that as bad as I think my circumstances might be at any given time there are still others with fresher pain, with harder trials, and some who don't even rely on the Lord to be on their side when the bottom falls out.
If you haven't found this blog:
I hope that you will check it out. They have been heavy on my heart lately.


Sarah said...

Thank you for your comment on my blog! It was so sweet of you to stop by and to give me the chance to read your story. I am so sorry about Brinley's death. She was such an adorable little girl, and I know how badly you miss her. I so wish that you and your family did not have to walk this road... There is nothing easy about it. But, as you said, it is good not to be alone in it. It is also very comforting that we have our sweet Heavenly Father to hold us.

I hope that your family photos are wonderful, and that you do see Brinley in the lovely colors.

Tasha said...

I just "found" you through Angie's blog.I just finished reading all of your posts from the begining.My heart is breaking for you right now.I have never lost a child but I do know how much I love my two girls.Maggie is 3 and Avery Grace is 4 months.I can not fathom life if something were to happen to them.I am going to add you to my prayer journal.What a beautiful little girl Brinley was.May her legacy be just as beautiful.Hugs from Indiana.

Wolf Family said...

WOW... At this moment I sit at my computer with tears rolling down my face. I read a few of your post including the post written with details about the passing of Brinley. I want you to know I am praying for you. I have a 2 1/2 year old named Brendlee and tomorrow morning when she wakes up I plan to share with her about your daughter and together we will pray for you and your family again. I guess we could say from one Brinley to another Brendlee. Your life story is so amazing, I learned in May about the ultimate plan of God, and how we may not understand the plan, but none the less, it is still God's Plan, this life lesson/spiritual lesson come after losing my son at 14 weeks in utero. All of my children teach me more about myself and about the Father in heaven, but my son has taught me so much more than I can ever explained. Thanks for sharing your story, I pray each person receives great Hope from reading about your daughter and her life. The pictures of her are so wonderful. Again Thank You

carol said...

Just read your blog for the first time today. Will promise to pray for you. Sister in Christ, Carol